am i asking for too much? am i?
i feel like i'm forcing C to a corner.
creating more heartaches and
headaches for him.
am i being too unreasonable?
was i too overboard to ask that of him?
maybe i shouldnt have.
i should have taken it in like a man.
endure. keep it to myself.
if i did, he wouldnt have to cry.
if i did, he wouldnt have to suffer.
if i did, he wouldnt have to worry.
if i did, his heart wouldnt be heavy.
was i too selfish.
mental note to self, i wont do it again.
i wont ask anything of him.
i'll just take it. like a man. keep it in.
he doesnt have to say it.
i know how he feels and thinks.
i can do it. i can take all the heartaches.
i can. i will. even if it breaks me.

this week and the next is gonna be
tough for me. cause its PMS time.
sucks. i hate to handle moodswings.
it makes me tear for nothing,
angry the next second
and happy the next minute. wth.

if this love is what i wanted,
i must be prepared.
prepare to fight wars.
prepare to give everything up.
prepare to get hurt.
because its all worth it.


/waking up to no one each morning
is like drinking from an empty cup.